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One Month Without You!

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Hey Dad! How can a month be gone already. Sometimes it feels like you have been gone for years and sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, some days it doesn't seem real at all (I almost asked Mom how you were the other day). Some days I find myself wondering how my body can produce so many tears and other days I feel like a monster because the day goes by before I realize your death hasn't crossed my mind.  I find myself sitting alone at home and I just burst out crying for no apparent reason, nothing triggers it, it just happens. I cry out to the Lord and ask why, and then the next breath I find myself praising him because you are no longer suffering and you are with him in Heaven, that brings a smile to my face. Grief is a strange thing. I know you want me to be happy and to go on with my life and I am doing the best I can to do that. I go along doing my daily routine and then all of a sudden I hit a wall that makes me stop dead in my tracks. Its the weirdest thing ev

Obituary for Helmut

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This was by far the hardest article to write! I have had words flow out of me for the past 2.5 years for this blog keeping you all informed but this Obit is the finale, it’s the end, my Dad is at rest and not here with us anymore! Thank you to Mom for helping me get the words out. BUT guess what??? We did win the battle…THE BEAST is gone and my Dad has been ultimately HEALED!! Rest easy Dad…I love you beyond words and miss you greatly! JOHN “HELMUT” NEUFELD Surrounded with love and  with  his family  at his side,  John “Helmut” Neufeld  age 75  of Shoal Lake, Manitoba went to his eternal  home  on  October 24, 2023 . Though we are saddened by his passing we rejoice that he is now fully healed and with his Saviour Jesus Christ.   Helmut  was born on August 10,  1948,   in Grunthal, Manitoba and spent his youth living in the small farming community. Eager for adventure he went to Winnipeg where he owned and operated a small cartage company.   In 1971 he met the love of his life, Rosana M

Our Angel Has Earned His Wings!!

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My Dad John “Helmut” Neufeld saw the beautiful face of his Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ this evening at 811pm. Thank you for all your support and prayers over these past 2 1/2 years! We love you all! Rosana, Jason, Shannon, David, Belle and Felicity

“Daddy I am Here”

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So many thoughts going thru my mind as I sit here listening to Dad breathe beside me. There was no reaction when I came in his room this evening after being gone for a week, he didn’t squeeze my hand and he didn’t give me a kiss…but I am told he can hear me… “Daddy I am here”. I talk to him like I talk to Jesus while I pray. I don’t get an audible response but I continue to tell him about my week of District Governor training, I tell him I am here safely, I tell him it’s ok to go home to Heaven. I am told he can hear me… “Daddy I am here”. Mom went home when I got here, she needs to rest. It was hard for her to go but Dad knows she loves him and I know he is a peace with her taking the rest she needs. I tell him every hour how much we all love him. I am told he can hear me… “Daddy I am here”. Jason is on his way to the hospital. Says he won’t stay the night, just wants to come to see his Dad. This is so hard on all of us, but we will get thru as a family unit. Our patriarch is going be

Palliative Care

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Hello All! It is with a heavy heart that I update the blog with the news that Dad had a seizure on Saturday and he is now in Palliative Care at Minnedosa Hospital! Mom had made arrangements for Occupational Therapy to come to the house today to assess what was needed to help her care for him, but the good Lord took care of that and now he is in hospital. I know they both wanted to keep him home as long as possible…so I guess we know what the definition of “long as possible” is now! He remains very calm and is in no pain which we are very thankful for. Please keep our family in your prayers as we travel through this new journey! As Jason said to his friend on the phone this evening… “We now hurry up and wait, it’s not if, it’s when”. Love Shannon for The Neufeld Family!!

Well F*ck!!

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Let see if I can write this thru the many tears I am shedding! The MRI results are in and they are not good at all! The BEAST has grown substantially and Dr Peats feels that there are tentacles behind the tumour that can’t be seen with the MRI! Because of this the decision was made to cancel all future Chemo Treatments. The plan is to increase his steroid in hopes to give him a better quality of life! So there you have it…the plan going forward is to make Dad as comfortable as possible and pray he can move to Heaven as pain free and peacefully as possible! I haven’t cried this much in months but man is my heart breaking! This summer has been filled with memory making and spending quality time with both Mom and Dad. We spent every weekend at the camper and did all the things. I have noticed a decline almost weekly in Dad, but I just pushed it aside in hopes that I wasn’t really seeing what I was seeing and still holding the dream that my Dad would live forever! It has been so hard to se

Happy 75th Dad!!

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~ This is an old picture but I love it ~ Well tomorrow is my Dad's 75th Birthday!! 2 years ago we didn't know if he would make 73 and here we are about to celebrate 75!! God's is so GOOD!! How will he celebrate...by going to Regina to get the final measurements in one eye for Cataract Surgery that will happen August 31st. Happy Birthday to him!! I know he can't wait until the 31st when he will be able to see again (at least out of one eye, second eye will come soon after). August 16th is MRI day, so with that we hope that the BEAST is gone or at least has shrunk or not done anything. If that is the case we are really hoping the Oncologist will grant him a Chemo Break so his body can rejuvenate from all the poison he has taken in. We have noticed of late that he is quite quiet (not much to say), his memory isn't as sharp, and when he is tired he walks bent backwards at the waist (which he doesn't realize when it happens). My hope is if he gets a Chemo Break his B